I just remembered

I had forgotten.
I had forgotten why
I never let you and I
Get specific.
Why I allowed my other
To drift amidst a sea
Of non specifics.

But
I just remembered.

I just remembered that
Everything U and I
Or he and she shared
Is hated.
I just recalled that the
Walls I tore down for
You are reinstated.
Re- enforced with hatred
For all things we used to
Hold sacred.

I just remembered you on
An Ice cream scoop.

I recalled you as a loop
De loop.

I saw you spread out on
Pink sheets, I recalled you
As I bent a knee and I hated it.

So I tried in vain to escape it.

I'm grateful it ended before it really began because if I
Had died inside in later years I might have hated sand.

If I had taken you on that
Moonlit picnic I would have
Hated the stars because every
Shooting asteroid would have reopened a scar.

I'm elated that we never took that morning hike because then I'd hate the sunrise. I'm glad your eye color was normal because if they had been unique I could have hated strange eyes.

As is. I'll forget again.
Tomorrow. But today I wear a black band for my sorrows

....TheGift